I am a monster. Hate me. Destroy me.

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30 December 2006

"A drink, for the horror that I'm in.

For the good guys and the bad guys, for the monsters that I've been."

This post would have been so much cooler if I had it done tomorrow at the stroke of midnight (because I'm a dork like that), but I would most probably be asleep by the time it were midnight so...gyea.

2006 has been nothing but amazing for me. It was the year that I got stressed out/depressed/sick the most, but ironically, it was also the year that I learnt the most about myself.

This year was a turning point in the way I think and the way I am going to live my life from now on.

I guess that the past few years I've not been living my life to the fullest. I was also super pessimistic and irritable. As compared to some other more angsty teens, I was pretty mild, but I still hate how it was.

I put the weight of the world on my shoulders and got so heated up in debates that I'd end up crying. That was partly the reason why I have this 'no-no' policy to joining a debate team.

I also got depressed very easily. Thankfully I didn't do any stupid stuff, but now that I think about it, there was really nothing worth getting depressed about. Life is good and I've got so many people around who love and care for me...so how bad could it be?

Right now, after the holidays, which I've used to reflect on myself, I am a brand new person.

Some people might not notice it yet, but give me time to change :]

I realised that nowadays, I am so much more happy and my nightly prayers are not for God to punish XX or to put her/him in his place, but for everyone to be happy as well and for their dreams to be fulfilled. Oh, and this has never been left out, for MCR to come to Singapore. ROFL.

My life seems so much brighter and full of possibilities. I don't get angry with stuff I can never change anymore and I am so much more eager to start learning new things in school so that I could eventually live out my dreams.

Oh, I really think I should thank everyone who has made my year so wonderful. To all my friends, I love you guys sooooo much!!! I know that sometimes I might be a bit sarcastic and sharp, but it's all for the good of you guys. I'm so sorry if I had made you guys hurt in any way...I really, really didn't mean it. You all mean the world to me and thank you for helping me out of the dark times!!! We better keep in contact okay? Mwah!

Mmkay, now for my new year resolutions...honestly, I never really felt the need for them all my life, but I really think that 2006 should be the year I start.

1) Swear less.

2) Slack less.

3) Continue to be straight edge.

4) Be more optimistic.

5) Be completely true to myself.

6) Be brutally honest to what I have to change in myself.

7) Keep myself in check from time to time.

8) Be less critical and more accepting.

Yep. That's it. I hope everyone keeps to their resolutions as I would (hope to) keep mine.

That's all from me in this wonderful year. I wish everyone well and have a happy new year!

Mwah!